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I think it's a good sign that i can see your picture and not
have my stomach flip out with emotion like it used to. and i
think that's it's a good sign that i haven't had the urge to
text you and freak out because you and i both know i'm not
immature and there is some other reason other than that. it's
just one of those i'm just kinda over it thing. and now i can
finally worry about everything else in life other than trying
to squeeze myself into your busy schedule. and i honestly
think that i am going to miss your family and being ablt to go
to hockey games more than you yourself, because you were
honestly a dick to mee a lot, whether you meant to be or not.
i may love you still, but i know that it's better off this way.

Kelsey Stergiou is one of the nicest people i have ever met.

and in result of all of this, Gage Dennis Carter is back.
& this time, he's here to stay (:

.

& you know i thought it would be a lot harder to get over you.
but truth is, i don't need you at all. and although it was
hard at first, things are a lot easier already and it's only
the second day.

a lot has happened in the last 2 days. i have realized that one
person who i never expected to always be there, is. & that boy
that i always had feelings for, has them back and always has.
and that i truly am i strong person, and get up when shoved down
pretty quickly. it's just kind of been an eye opener.

OH! And i have my bestfriend back, thank godd (:

It's so hard to let you in,

Empty? Yes.
Incomplete? Of course.
Needing You? More than ever.

Valentines Day is one of the worst holiday
that has ever been created. It makes you
realize so much, and unfortunately, I
have realized a lot. For instance:
1. I hate not seeing Derek everyday.
& when i see him, it's for like 10 minutes
@ a hockey game. It's reallly starting to
hurt.
2. I still need him.
Why did i let myself get so attached to you?
How could i let myself get so attached to you?
What made me think you were any different?
I couldn't tell you either.

Do you ever think about me?
DO you ever wish we were still bestfriends?
Does it ever occur to you that you were the only
thing that could make me smile when i was crying?
Can you honestly say you didn't mean any of those
things you said?
DO you even know i talk about you 24/7 about how
much... i love you?

These are the many things that Valentines Day make
me realize. I love you; I hate you.

& what i would give for you to say it to me,
cause baby that's how i feeel more than anything
right now.

I have cried over you way to many times now,
i just need to let go. To bad that is not
possiblee.

AHHHHHHHH! SAVE ME! stupid abbbey

AHHHHHHHH! SAVE ME! stupid abbbey has attacked!

yick

My weekend has been officially ruined.
And i can't even spend valentines day
with derek. instead i shall be spending
it with either meg timbas, or abbey & sam
metivier. Horrray! not.

I have had this extreme empty feeeling
lately, and i'm not exactly sure why.
It doesn't make any sense at alll. like
at all, at alll. i almost cried last night.
and i never cry, hard to accept.
& the strangest part is like i have just
about everything i want. I have the great
boyfriend, the best friends, and the overall
good life. What's missing.
Actually.. i have figured out what was missing..
gage.

GYM IS TORUROUS! although dodgeball with
Shannon is fucking hilarious.
"WHITNEY WE'RE MOVING IN.. DUCK!
OUCH SHIT! IS MY FACE RED?!"
Oh god no shannon, you're face is only
severely pink :D
Mr Gorham loves me.
"Whitney put yourself out there, you have potential!"
"... i have potential to excell at dodgeball? SWEEET!"
"NOT THE POINT! NOW GO HIT MALCOLM!"
hahahahahahahahahaha, i hate malcolm.
:D!

Katy Perry bugs me.
But her song "thinking of you" doesn't bug me.
It's weirdly acceptible.

& this whole holiday only dedicated to love
can suck my left tit, thanks.

why me?

How is it possible to

How is it possible to have just about everything you want, and still feel complete empty. i don't know, i think i just really need to see derek.

HORRRRAY!

with chelsea biotches!:D
GASP! MAC & CHEESE TIME YO!
kraft, not easy mac.,
easy mac is for squares.

anywho, PEACE!

"Here i am.. fifteen minutes later starving
with the chicken on the counter, i'm so dumb'
^^^ my boyfriend is a winnnnner! :D

i could fucking kill samuel

i could fucking kill samuel dennis metivier.

legit.

WOOOOOO! with abbey at 8

WOOOOOO! with abbey at 8 in the morning and i didn't sleepover! opahhh!

i <333333 this.

This is Harvard, Not a stripper bar.

I have been doing a lot of 'what if' kinda thinking lately.
like what if i never started dating you, would we still be
bestfriends?
or what if i never got involved with you, would me and her
be as close as we used to?
i dunno. but i hate it. my mind just needs to rest for a while
i think and just kinda escape all this nonsense

i have this compulsion that i need to say i love you,
before i blurt it out at the worst time ever.
i'm nervous as too what you would say though.

oh! and i have a new obsession with legally blonde the
musicall. the music is so.. amazing? yes lets go with that :)
thanks mucho chelsea.

i love not being such a procratinator anymore,
like i don't wait til the last minute to do my homework
now. maybe cause i want to do good this semester?
yesssss that is the reason. my mum wasn't to thrilled
that i got almost straight c's. ehh whatevers! i'm going
for straight a's or b's. i won't settle for less.

Keep it positive
As you slap her to the floor
Keep it positive
As you pull her hair and call her whore
i heart this :D