It's so hard to let you in,

Empty? Yes.
Incomplete? Of course.
Needing You? More than ever.

Valentines Day is one of the worst holiday
that has ever been created. It makes you
realize so much, and unfortunately, I
have realized a lot. For instance:
1. I hate not seeing Derek everyday.
& when i see him, it's for like 10 minutes
@ a hockey game. It's reallly starting to
hurt.
2. I still need him.
Why did i let myself get so attached to you?
How could i let myself get so attached to you?
What made me think you were any different?
I couldn't tell you either.

Do you ever think about me?
DO you ever wish we were still bestfriends?
Does it ever occur to you that you were the only
thing that could make me smile when i was crying?
Can you honestly say you didn't mean any of those
things you said?
DO you even know i talk about you 24/7 about how
much... i love you?

These are the many things that Valentines Day make
me realize. I love you; I hate you.

& what i would give for you to say it to me,
cause baby that's how i feeel more than anything
right now.

I have cried over you way to many times now,
i just need to let go. To bad that is not
possiblee.