NEW BLOGGGG!
cause i hate this one so so so much.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
It's been a whilee.
A lot of stuff is starting to change.
- I've realized I want religion in my life.
- I've been selfish lately, very selfish.
- I want to change myself, for the better.
I like becoming closer with people I never even knew existed.
Kailey Maloney - Tennis has broughten us closer
on so many levels. I really like it.
Sarina Clements - Gym class with you makes us become so close. I love it so much. I needed a friend like you.
Hunter Roulston - We have become so close. It's amazing. I trust you so much. You're the best (:
Recklass was so.. i don;t know. Touching I guess?
It was a eye opener. I love it.
Just, a lot of stuff has been racing through my mind lately.
I can't put it into words persay but I think things are changing.
for the better.
Mozzarella Sticks = LIFE!
- I've realized I want religion in my life.
- I've been selfish lately, very selfish.
- I want to change myself, for the better.
I like becoming closer with people I never even knew existed.
Kailey Maloney - Tennis has broughten us closer
on so many levels. I really like it.
Sarina Clements - Gym class with you makes us become so close. I love it so much. I needed a friend like you.
Hunter Roulston - We have become so close. It's amazing. I trust you so much. You're the best (:
Recklass was so.. i don;t know. Touching I guess?
It was a eye opener. I love it.
Just, a lot of stuff has been racing through my mind lately.
I can't put it into words persay but I think things are changing.
for the better.
Mozzarella Sticks = LIFE!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Why not?
Why do I always get guilted into things?
- My mum guilted me into auditioning for concert choir.
- Abbey guilts me into going to her house.
- Mercedes guilts me into hanging out.
Why can't I learn to say no?
I frustrate myself, truly.
I think doing tennis is such a positive thing
in my life. I'm getting exercise while being
with a bunch of awesome girls :)
I really love it, even though my arm is throbbing.
American Idol bugs me. It's so stereotypical.
It's always the same type of people that make
it on there. I don't like similarity. I like
diversity.
I don't know what's going on with you.
You confuse me.
- My mum guilted me into auditioning for concert choir.
- Abbey guilts me into going to her house.
- Mercedes guilts me into hanging out.
Why can't I learn to say no?
I frustrate myself, truly.
I think doing tennis is such a positive thing
in my life. I'm getting exercise while being
with a bunch of awesome girls :)
I really love it, even though my arm is throbbing.
American Idol bugs me. It's so stereotypical.
It's always the same type of people that make
it on there. I don't like similarity. I like
diversity.
I don't know what's going on with you.
You confuse me.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
(:
Tennnis! I <3 tennnnnis so much.
It's amazing. I wish I was good.
"There is always room for improvement"
Thank you for the inspirational motivation Mr Miller.
I'll take your words into consideration.
I have a real issue.
Physical contact makes me hyperventilate.
I become spastic. I can't handle it.
But on the contrary, I'M NOT FAILING MATH!
Like is good :)
It's amazing. I wish I was good.
"There is always room for improvement"
Thank you for the inspirational motivation Mr Miller.
I'll take your words into consideration.
I have a real issue.
Physical contact makes me hyperventilate.
I become spastic. I can't handle it.
But on the contrary, I'M NOT FAILING MATH!
Like is good :)
Saturday, March 21, 2009
fgjhft
I'm so happy when I'm not home.
But right when I get home, I'm
miserable.
Wouldn't it be smartest if I just not
come home? I should probably just do
that.
I want to see you.
I have to see you.
I'm going to see you.
I need to get out of my household.
I'd rather run away than be here.
My mother thinks I'm kidding when I
say I'm on the verge of mental
breakdown. She's a fucking bitch.
FUCK her.
Now, because of my mother, he's mad
at me.
FUCK MY LIFE times 10.
But right when I get home, I'm
miserable.
Wouldn't it be smartest if I just not
come home? I should probably just do
that.
I want to see you.
I have to see you.
I'm going to see you.
I need to get out of my household.
I'd rather run away than be here.
My mother thinks I'm kidding when I
say I'm on the verge of mental
breakdown. She's a fucking bitch.
FUCK her.
Now, because of my mother, he's mad
at me.
FUCK MY LIFE times 10.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Can you feel the love tonight?
I want to watch lion king so badly right now.
and my piano is calling my name.
olivia gunther is amazing :)
I just chugged 4 bottles of water, in result i have to pee.
And steph a rebel.
I'm so pumped for tennis! <3
& learning a new instrument.
Thi is going to be great.
and my piano is calling my name.
olivia gunther is amazing :)
I just chugged 4 bottles of water, in result i have to pee.
And steph a rebel.
I'm so pumped for tennis! <3
& learning a new instrument.
Thi is going to be great.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Cough.
Today, I tried something a little different.
Most occasions, I ignore people during the day.
Today, I tried associating. Who knew it would be a success.
I made a new friend. She's in a bad place right now.
She lost basically everything. Friends, boyfriend, family support.
I gave her support, she gave me a reassurance that I needed.
We go through a lot of the same things.
I don't care if she is a "bitch", that's your opinion.
Not mine. I'm already seeing an improvement in myself.
An improvement I could learn to get used too.
Battle of the Bands = <3
I didn't think that a school as lame as West could possibly have
such talented kids. I'm truly impressed.
Amazing <3
Two out of three people in this band go to West.
I love it.
I think Jenna is mad that I still like Dylan.
Whatever.
Most occasions, I ignore people during the day.
Today, I tried associating. Who knew it would be a success.
I made a new friend. She's in a bad place right now.
She lost basically everything. Friends, boyfriend, family support.
I gave her support, she gave me a reassurance that I needed.
We go through a lot of the same things.
I don't care if she is a "bitch", that's your opinion.
Not mine. I'm already seeing an improvement in myself.
An improvement I could learn to get used too.
Battle of the Bands = <3
I didn't think that a school as lame as West could possibly have
such talented kids. I'm truly impressed.
Amazing <3
Two out of three people in this band go to West.
I love it.
I think Jenna is mad that I still like Dylan.
Whatever.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Yuck.
You know what the hardest part about allowing people into your mind is?
They then have an insight to your world.
But what if you don't want people to be aware of what happens in your life?
A.Do you just refrain from discussing personal matters?
B.Repress emotions?
C.What about conceal important affairs til you explode?
While all of those suggestions seem marvelous, I think I'll choose
D.None of the above.
Only if that was as simple as it sounds.
It would be amazing if I could learn to supress certain obsticles
without my mind becoming over burdened.
Too bad my mind wanders faster than I can keep up with.
A pity, a true pity.
I'm starting to truely annoy myself.
Why can't I be happy without the need to feel needed?
Why can't I learn to keep to myself, keep my thoughts to myself?
I have no patience, i'm getting really snippy with people who don't deserve it.
As well as people who do.
My tolerance level is going down, not a good sign.
Mental breakdowns are starting to become regular, even worse sign.
It's unhealthy the way I think, the way I act.
My habits repulse me, why can't I change?
I ruin everything for myself, why can't I stop?
I never realized I'm a lot more complicated than I give myself credit for.
Anyone want to switch minds with me? Mines out of control.
Is it a bad sign that a good friend of mine is starting to get on my nerves more
than ever?
I used to think the stuff he said was hilarious.
Now? Not so much. Maybe I'm maturing?
Who knows. If I keep this up, I'm going to have no friends in the end.
Sad, very sad.
Whatever, I do better when people don't interact with me.
Chris is BOMB! :D
Whitney wuvsssss him.
YOU NEED TO STOP TEXTING ME.
It's suffocating, I hate it.
Leave me alone. I can't take it.
I think I just need to away.
Far, far away.
They then have an insight to your world.
But what if you don't want people to be aware of what happens in your life?
A.Do you just refrain from discussing personal matters?
B.Repress emotions?
C.What about conceal important affairs til you explode?
While all of those suggestions seem marvelous, I think I'll choose
D.None of the above.
Only if that was as simple as it sounds.
It would be amazing if I could learn to supress certain obsticles
without my mind becoming over burdened.
Too bad my mind wanders faster than I can keep up with.
A pity, a true pity.
I'm starting to truely annoy myself.
Why can't I be happy without the need to feel needed?
Why can't I learn to keep to myself, keep my thoughts to myself?
I have no patience, i'm getting really snippy with people who don't deserve it.
As well as people who do.
My tolerance level is going down, not a good sign.
Mental breakdowns are starting to become regular, even worse sign.
It's unhealthy the way I think, the way I act.
My habits repulse me, why can't I change?
I ruin everything for myself, why can't I stop?
I never realized I'm a lot more complicated than I give myself credit for.
Anyone want to switch minds with me? Mines out of control.
Is it a bad sign that a good friend of mine is starting to get on my nerves more
than ever?
I used to think the stuff he said was hilarious.
Now? Not so much. Maybe I'm maturing?
Who knows. If I keep this up, I'm going to have no friends in the end.
Sad, very sad.
Whatever, I do better when people don't interact with me.
Chris is BOMB! :D
Whitney wuvsssss him.
YOU NEED TO STOP TEXTING ME.
It's suffocating, I hate it.
Leave me alone. I can't take it.
I think I just need to away.
Far, far away.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Hahahahah,.
And I just went back and looked at my previous posts and realized that I always have some sort of male person in my lifee. I'm so lame to an extensive point. I need to become more steady with things. Now this is starting to bug me..
Actually, me altogether is starting to bug me a lot. I don't understand myself at all anymore. Why I make half of the decisions I do bewilders me. I wish I could rewind all of this, and start myself over again. There is a lot I would change if I had the opportunity.
My habits are terrible. I'm starting to horrify myself.. I think I need help, counseling, anything. These aren't good signs.
... and people tell me I seem like an overall happy person. Sorry kiddos to disappoint you, but that is the farthest from reality.
Maybe overall it is what I need. Change.
Actually, me altogether is starting to bug me a lot. I don't understand myself at all anymore. Why I make half of the decisions I do bewilders me. I wish I could rewind all of this, and start myself over again. There is a lot I would change if I had the opportunity.
My habits are terrible. I'm starting to horrify myself.. I think I need help, counseling, anything. These aren't good signs.
... and people tell me I seem like an overall happy person. Sorry kiddos to disappoint you, but that is the farthest from reality.
Maybe overall it is what I need. Change.
School.
This topic is the downfall of my life.
Nothing upsets me more than this place.
West is hell all together. Does anyone
want to trade schools with me.
I HAVE A D IN ALGEBRA! How the fuck did I
manage that?! I surely don't know. Ugh.
Killl me now. I hate this.
How is it that I have my highest grade in what
is supposed to be my hardest class.
English. The highlight of my day <3
Nothing upsets me more than this place.
West is hell all together. Does anyone
want to trade schools with me.
I HAVE A D IN ALGEBRA! How the fuck did I
manage that?! I surely don't know. Ugh.
Killl me now. I hate this.
How is it that I have my highest grade in what
is supposed to be my hardest class.
English. The highlight of my day <3
Gage Dennis Carter.
How could I manage to mess things up with you again?
I promised myself I wouldn't allow that to happen.
This time is different though.. This time you won't
accept my apology. Can't say I blame you.
I'll always love you bud. I just wish.. you didn't
love me back.
I promised myself I wouldn't allow that to happen.
This time is different though.. This time you won't
accept my apology. Can't say I blame you.
I'll always love you bud. I just wish.. you didn't
love me back.
Richard Dylan Anderson.
FIRST:
How ironic is it that I would find you of all people in the world and know immediately that you were him? I remember how obsessed I was with you in 6th grade. HA! Funny stuff. And then telling Sam how you liked me. God. Amazing. Nothing made me happier.
SECOND:
We hit it off right away. There was never a doubt in my mind that we weren't compatible in every way. We had something others don't, something others desire. I was lucky to find it in you.
THIRD:
You were my everything. My sunshine on a cloudy day. The only thing that could cheer me up. Losing you was the one thing that hurt more than anything else that I have exprienced. Every song I hear reminds me of you. Every couple I see makes me want to be with you, and I can't help but to be jealous of all the other girls you have liked after me. I can't help but feel the need to yell in your face "You don't them, you'll always have me."
NOW:
We are.. interesting I guess. I have you back in a sense. But I don't have you to myself I guess. For now, I'm sharing you. I don't like it. She needs to move on from you. You even said I was your first pick. She's my friend, yes. But that doesn't matter to me. There is a reason why I fought for you in the first place. It's plain and simple hun, I love you. And that is never going to change <3
How ironic is it that I would find you of all people in the world and know immediately that you were him? I remember how obsessed I was with you in 6th grade. HA! Funny stuff. And then telling Sam how you liked me. God. Amazing. Nothing made me happier.
SECOND:
We hit it off right away. There was never a doubt in my mind that we weren't compatible in every way. We had something others don't, something others desire. I was lucky to find it in you.
THIRD:
You were my everything. My sunshine on a cloudy day. The only thing that could cheer me up. Losing you was the one thing that hurt more than anything else that I have exprienced. Every song I hear reminds me of you. Every couple I see makes me want to be with you, and I can't help but to be jealous of all the other girls you have liked after me. I can't help but feel the need to yell in your face "You don't them, you'll always have me."
NOW:
We are.. interesting I guess. I have you back in a sense. But I don't have you to myself I guess. For now, I'm sharing you. I don't like it. She needs to move on from you. You even said I was your first pick. She's my friend, yes. But that doesn't matter to me. There is a reason why I fought for you in the first place. It's plain and simple hun, I love you. And that is never going to change <3
Derek Albert Wyman.
I'm so fucking done. DONE.
You're an asshole. How didn't I
catch onto your games before? I don't
usually put myself out there like that.
And now I know it's not happening
again. I refuse to accept apologies
from you. Wanna call me an immature
bitch? I'll show you one. Tell me to
grow up? That's on your hands dickhead.
I'm not changing for you, and NO I'M
NOT GOING TO WAIT FOR YOU! I don't
fucking care. You're not worth my time,
and obviously you never were.
I'll miss the old Derek, not this one.
This one I couldn't care less about.
I have wasted FAR to mch time on you.
I'm just done.
You're an asshole. How didn't I
catch onto your games before? I don't
usually put myself out there like that.
And now I know it's not happening
again. I refuse to accept apologies
from you. Wanna call me an immature
bitch? I'll show you one. Tell me to
grow up? That's on your hands dickhead.
I'm not changing for you, and NO I'M
NOT GOING TO WAIT FOR YOU! I don't
fucking care. You're not worth my time,
and obviously you never were.
I'll miss the old Derek, not this one.
This one I couldn't care less about.
I have wasted FAR to mch time on you.
I'm just done.
On the outside looking in.
HAHAHAHHH! I love my life.
As well as Matt Mccue. Oh how
I miss his stupid face :)
So since it's been around 10 days since
last post, I'm going to seperate the important
shiiiiit into a few shorter blogs.
KAY!
As well as Matt Mccue. Oh how
I miss his stupid face :)
So since it's been around 10 days since
last post, I'm going to seperate the important
shiiiiit into a few shorter blogs.
KAY!
Sunday, March 8, 2009
My heart is aching.
>WARNING! This is going to be incredibly long.
You don't talk to me anymore, again.
And I can't even bring myself to talk
to you and tell you exactly what I'm
feeling. It will only open the door
for stooping to patheticness again.
I will not stoop to that again.
I let myself be vulnerable, and that..
that I am not proud of. Oh how I wish,
how I wish that you would tell me you
have moved on, you have no feelings for me,
you want nothing to do with me. Then, I
won't be tempted to ruin the barrier
that I just put up to stop me from
getting hurt. I just wish you'd say that.
No, no I don't. Nothing would hurt more
than that. Nothing. I can't win.
And now, I have people telling me daily that
I am changing. I don't really know if that
is a good thing or a bad thing, but I guess
it's happening. And those people won't tell
me how I am changing. It's just simply..
"You are different now, somethings changed
with you."
Okay? Care to clarify? Apparently not.
My Week:
Monday:
No school! Horray! I love snowdays.
Of course I spent half of my day doing
a stupid rough draft and outline for a
english paper due Tuesday. But hey, I
wasn't doing it while I was in Florida.
It was not happening.
I realized that I spent about 22 hours of
my day on the phone with Mercedes.
Pathetic? Yeah, just a tad.
But she is someone who will never judge me.
Ever. I find it so easy to talk to her, and
trust her. I like it a lot.
And so I think you really need to be the man
you claim you are and apologize.
Tuesday:
School. Ugh. Nothing is more frusterating
than getting up wicked early in the AM
to go to the one place I hate more than
anything. It really really sucks at West, really,
I don't think I have ever been so
desperate for my old friend in my whole
life. I really need them back.
At least my essay that I didn't do for
english is actualy due tomorrow :D
Ahh the gym. A place that reeks of men and
sweat. So soothing. It feels so good know-
ing you just like worked off about 99% of
the food you didn't eat today. I want to
start going like.. everyday. I think I am
starting to have an obsession with my body..
an unhealthy one.
I don't think it was the smartest idea to
start talking to you again. Those feelings?
You could say they have almost hit home,
yet again.
Wednesday:
I decided it would be best to stay home and
due homework that I have neglected. My mum?
Furious. Ehh whatever :D
I was going to see you. I was going to tell
you how I really need a straight forward
answer.
What are we now?
What is going to happen?
How come you like PMS more than the average
teenage girl?
Are you still smoking?
I just need to know.
If this is just a game to you, I'm not willing
to play.
Thursday:
Thursday.. what happened Thursday?
I think today was fairly easy.
Drink my beer and smoke my weed.
But my good friends is all I need.
Pass out at 3. Wake up at 10.
Go out to eat, then do it again.
<3
Why do I feel like my stability is going to
crash at any moment?
Friday:
Well. I was supposed to go to the gym.
But in result I came down with a cold.
WHAT THE HELL! No gym = INSANITY!
I find my obsession annoying.
My mum went on a rant about Mercedes in
the car with my grandmother. It bugs me.
And then she has the nerve to tell me not
to tell Mercedes exactly what the said.
Are you kidding me? Really now? No. When
you stop talking shit about a 14 year old
girl, then I will keep my mouth shut.
And I thought you were bigger than that?
So, after bitching my mother out, she allowed
Mercedes to sleep over. I find it really
hypocritical. But I'm not complaining. I missed
her. I was so excited when she said she was
allowed to come. It was like finding a piece
of myself again. A part that was pushed away,
but I have back. I love it <3
Saturday:
Kill me now please?
Today was HILARIOUS!
I need a job, so I called a couple little places
that I figured probably could use help, or would
hire a 15 year old girl. We decided lets go fill
out applications at blakes on the west side and
chez vachon. Of course we had to walk. No biggie
Chez Vachon is right by my house. But Blakes..
Let's say major blisters. MAJOR!
Then my memere called and asked if we wanted any
rides to fill out more applications. So we went to
the blakes on the north end and goldenrod.
Blakes on the north end has one hostess spot available..
I need this job.
Neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed..
Like, I need it more than Mercedes.
Way more. If she gets it, I'll be pissed.
Whateversss.
I just spent like.. an hour and a half writing this.
HA! I have a life.
And Mercedes is still asleep.. time to wake her up!
:D
You don't talk to me anymore, again.
And I can't even bring myself to talk
to you and tell you exactly what I'm
feeling. It will only open the door
for stooping to patheticness again.
I will not stoop to that again.
I let myself be vulnerable, and that..
that I am not proud of. Oh how I wish,
how I wish that you would tell me you
have moved on, you have no feelings for me,
you want nothing to do with me. Then, I
won't be tempted to ruin the barrier
that I just put up to stop me from
getting hurt. I just wish you'd say that.
No, no I don't. Nothing would hurt more
than that. Nothing. I can't win.
And now, I have people telling me daily that
I am changing. I don't really know if that
is a good thing or a bad thing, but I guess
it's happening. And those people won't tell
me how I am changing. It's just simply..
"You are different now, somethings changed
with you."
Okay? Care to clarify? Apparently not.
My Week:
Monday:
No school! Horray! I love snowdays.
Of course I spent half of my day doing
a stupid rough draft and outline for a
english paper due Tuesday. But hey, I
wasn't doing it while I was in Florida.
It was not happening.
I realized that I spent about 22 hours of
my day on the phone with Mercedes.
Pathetic? Yeah, just a tad.
But she is someone who will never judge me.
Ever. I find it so easy to talk to her, and
trust her. I like it a lot.
And so I think you really need to be the man
you claim you are and apologize.
Tuesday:
School. Ugh. Nothing is more frusterating
than getting up wicked early in the AM
to go to the one place I hate more than
anything. It really really sucks at West, really,
I don't think I have ever been so
desperate for my old friend in my whole
life. I really need them back.
At least my essay that I didn't do for
english is actualy due tomorrow :D
Ahh the gym. A place that reeks of men and
sweat. So soothing. It feels so good know-
ing you just like worked off about 99% of
the food you didn't eat today. I want to
start going like.. everyday. I think I am
starting to have an obsession with my body..
an unhealthy one.
I don't think it was the smartest idea to
start talking to you again. Those feelings?
You could say they have almost hit home,
yet again.
Wednesday:
I decided it would be best to stay home and
due homework that I have neglected. My mum?
Furious. Ehh whatever :D
I was going to see you. I was going to tell
you how I really need a straight forward
answer.
What are we now?
What is going to happen?
How come you like PMS more than the average
teenage girl?
Are you still smoking?
I just need to know.
If this is just a game to you, I'm not willing
to play.
Thursday:
Thursday.. what happened Thursday?
I think today was fairly easy.
Drink my beer and smoke my weed.
But my good friends is all I need.
Pass out at 3. Wake up at 10.
Go out to eat, then do it again.
<3
Why do I feel like my stability is going to
crash at any moment?
Friday:
Well. I was supposed to go to the gym.
But in result I came down with a cold.
WHAT THE HELL! No gym = INSANITY!
I find my obsession annoying.
My mum went on a rant about Mercedes in
the car with my grandmother. It bugs me.
And then she has the nerve to tell me not
to tell Mercedes exactly what the said.
Are you kidding me? Really now? No. When
you stop talking shit about a 14 year old
girl, then I will keep my mouth shut.
And I thought you were bigger than that?
So, after bitching my mother out, she allowed
Mercedes to sleep over. I find it really
hypocritical. But I'm not complaining. I missed
her. I was so excited when she said she was
allowed to come. It was like finding a piece
of myself again. A part that was pushed away,
but I have back. I love it <3
Saturday:
Kill me now please?
Today was HILARIOUS!
I need a job, so I called a couple little places
that I figured probably could use help, or would
hire a 15 year old girl. We decided lets go fill
out applications at blakes on the west side and
chez vachon. Of course we had to walk. No biggie
Chez Vachon is right by my house. But Blakes..
Let's say major blisters. MAJOR!
Then my memere called and asked if we wanted any
rides to fill out more applications. So we went to
the blakes on the north end and goldenrod.
Blakes on the north end has one hostess spot available..
I need this job.
Neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed..
Like, I need it more than Mercedes.
Way more. If she gets it, I'll be pissed.
Whateversss.
I just spent like.. an hour and a half writing this.
HA! I have a life.
And Mercedes is still asleep.. time to wake her up!
:D
Monday, March 2, 2009
Congrats whitney. You are just
Congrats whitney. You are just as weak as you always promised yourself you wouldn't allow yourself to be.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Why is it?
That I fuck absolutely everything?
Yet again, I hurt Gage.
Nothing hurts more to know that I hurt
him over and over again.
I just .. i can't even explain it.
I hate this
Yet again, I hurt Gage.
Nothing hurts more to know that I hurt
him over and over again.
I just .. i can't even explain it.
I hate this
And when you grow up, I'll talk.
That's basically my view.
This whole immaturity thing? It isn't working.
I hate freshman for this reason. We all are so
immature. Lame? Very much so.
Florida was bomb! Sleeping in until like 1 am everyday was
fabulous, as well as the little things like no snow & the
weather was abbove 40 degrees. not big, but still.
School tomorrow = FUCK MY LIFE!
I don't want it, I dont't want it, I don't want it!
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!
I don't miss people at all, only Gage, Trevor, & Ashley.
Other than them, I'll pass. Everyone else can go away please,
thank you :)
Derek, oh my beloved Derek. What the hell am I going to do with you?
"I want to be with you too. I've made up my mind. I was dumb for ever
ending it. I miss you so much and I just want to be yours again."
Okaay, I can live with that.
"I don't know if I ever told you, but I used to smoke. A lot. (weed)
and I kinda started again with this kid on my hockey team. I did it
friday and last night."
That, I can't live with. I wish it was easier to just be like no it's
fine no big deal, I don't care. But I do care. That's the thing, I care
to much. I need to let go, but the problem is I can't. I just, I just
can't. Why did you have to do it again? You're gonna get into trouble..
again.
I LOVE GAGE DENNIS CARTER! <3
Bestfriend foreverrr.
This whole immaturity thing? It isn't working.
I hate freshman for this reason. We all are so
immature. Lame? Very much so.
Florida was bomb! Sleeping in until like 1 am everyday was
fabulous, as well as the little things like no snow & the
weather was abbove 40 degrees. not big, but still.
School tomorrow = FUCK MY LIFE!
I don't want it, I dont't want it, I don't want it!
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!
I don't miss people at all, only Gage, Trevor, & Ashley.
Other than them, I'll pass. Everyone else can go away please,
thank you :)
Derek, oh my beloved Derek. What the hell am I going to do with you?
"I want to be with you too. I've made up my mind. I was dumb for ever
ending it. I miss you so much and I just want to be yours again."
Okaay, I can live with that.
"I don't know if I ever told you, but I used to smoke. A lot. (weed)
and I kinda started again with this kid on my hockey team. I did it
friday and last night."
That, I can't live with. I wish it was easier to just be like no it's
fine no big deal, I don't care. But I do care. That's the thing, I care
to much. I need to let go, but the problem is I can't. I just, I just
can't. Why did you have to do it again? You're gonna get into trouble..
again.
I LOVE GAGE DENNIS CARTER! <3
Bestfriend foreverrr.
Monday, February 16, 2009
asdfghjkl;
I think it's a good sign that i can see your picture and not
have my stomach flip out with emotion like it used to. and i
think that's it's a good sign that i haven't had the urge to
text you and freak out because you and i both know i'm not
immature and there is some other reason other than that. it's
just one of those i'm just kinda over it thing. and now i can
finally worry about everything else in life other than trying
to squeeze myself into your busy schedule. and i honestly
think that i am going to miss your family and being ablt to go
to hockey games more than you yourself, because you were
honestly a dick to mee a lot, whether you meant to be or not.
i may love you still, but i know that it's better off this way.
Kelsey Stergiou is one of the nicest people i have ever met.
and in result of all of this, Gage Dennis Carter is back.
& this time, he's here to stay (:
have my stomach flip out with emotion like it used to. and i
think that's it's a good sign that i haven't had the urge to
text you and freak out because you and i both know i'm not
immature and there is some other reason other than that. it's
just one of those i'm just kinda over it thing. and now i can
finally worry about everything else in life other than trying
to squeeze myself into your busy schedule. and i honestly
think that i am going to miss your family and being ablt to go
to hockey games more than you yourself, because you were
honestly a dick to mee a lot, whether you meant to be or not.
i may love you still, but i know that it's better off this way.
Kelsey Stergiou is one of the nicest people i have ever met.
and in result of all of this, Gage Dennis Carter is back.
& this time, he's here to stay (:
.
& you know i thought it would be a lot harder to get over you.
but truth is, i don't need you at all. and although it was
hard at first, things are a lot easier already and it's only
the second day.
a lot has happened in the last 2 days. i have realized that one
person who i never expected to always be there, is. & that boy
that i always had feelings for, has them back and always has.
and that i truly am i strong person, and get up when shoved down
pretty quickly. it's just kind of been an eye opener.
OH! And i have my bestfriend back, thank godd (:
but truth is, i don't need you at all. and although it was
hard at first, things are a lot easier already and it's only
the second day.
a lot has happened in the last 2 days. i have realized that one
person who i never expected to always be there, is. & that boy
that i always had feelings for, has them back and always has.
and that i truly am i strong person, and get up when shoved down
pretty quickly. it's just kind of been an eye opener.
OH! And i have my bestfriend back, thank godd (:
Sunday, February 15, 2009
It's so hard to let you in,
Empty? Yes.
Incomplete? Of course.
Needing You? More than ever.
Valentines Day is one of the worst holiday
that has ever been created. It makes you
realize so much, and unfortunately, I
have realized a lot. For instance:
1. I hate not seeing Derek everyday.
& when i see him, it's for like 10 minutes
@ a hockey game. It's reallly starting to
hurt.
2. I still need him.
Why did i let myself get so attached to you?
How could i let myself get so attached to you?
What made me think you were any different?
I couldn't tell you either.
Do you ever think about me?
DO you ever wish we were still bestfriends?
Does it ever occur to you that you were the only
thing that could make me smile when i was crying?
Can you honestly say you didn't mean any of those
things you said?
DO you even know i talk about you 24/7 about how
much... i love you?
These are the many things that Valentines Day make
me realize. I love you; I hate you.
& what i would give for you to say it to me,
cause baby that's how i feeel more than anything
right now.
I have cried over you way to many times now,
i just need to let go. To bad that is not
possiblee.
Incomplete? Of course.
Needing You? More than ever.
Valentines Day is one of the worst holiday
that has ever been created. It makes you
realize so much, and unfortunately, I
have realized a lot. For instance:
1. I hate not seeing Derek everyday.
& when i see him, it's for like 10 minutes
@ a hockey game. It's reallly starting to
hurt.
2. I still need him.
Why did i let myself get so attached to you?
How could i let myself get so attached to you?
What made me think you were any different?
I couldn't tell you either.
Do you ever think about me?
DO you ever wish we were still bestfriends?
Does it ever occur to you that you were the only
thing that could make me smile when i was crying?
Can you honestly say you didn't mean any of those
things you said?
DO you even know i talk about you 24/7 about how
much... i love you?
These are the many things that Valentines Day make
me realize. I love you; I hate you.
& what i would give for you to say it to me,
cause baby that's how i feeel more than anything
right now.
I have cried over you way to many times now,
i just need to let go. To bad that is not
possiblee.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
yick
My weekend has been officially ruined.
And i can't even spend valentines day
with derek. instead i shall be spending
it with either meg timbas, or abbey & sam
metivier. Horrray! not.
I have had this extreme empty feeeling
lately, and i'm not exactly sure why.
It doesn't make any sense at alll. like
at all, at alll. i almost cried last night.
and i never cry, hard to accept.
& the strangest part is like i have just
about everything i want. I have the great
boyfriend, the best friends, and the overall
good life. What's missing.
Actually.. i have figured out what was missing..
gage.
GYM IS TORUROUS! although dodgeball with
Shannon is fucking hilarious.
"WHITNEY WE'RE MOVING IN.. DUCK!
OUCH SHIT! IS MY FACE RED?!"
Oh god no shannon, you're face is only
severely pink :D
Mr Gorham loves me.
"Whitney put yourself out there, you have potential!"
"... i have potential to excell at dodgeball? SWEEET!"
"NOT THE POINT! NOW GO HIT MALCOLM!"
hahahahahahahahahaha, i hate malcolm.
:D!
Katy Perry bugs me.
But her song "thinking of you" doesn't bug me.
It's weirdly acceptible.
& this whole holiday only dedicated to love
can suck my left tit, thanks.
why me?
And i can't even spend valentines day
with derek. instead i shall be spending
it with either meg timbas, or abbey & sam
metivier. Horrray! not.
I have had this extreme empty feeeling
lately, and i'm not exactly sure why.
It doesn't make any sense at alll. like
at all, at alll. i almost cried last night.
and i never cry, hard to accept.
& the strangest part is like i have just
about everything i want. I have the great
boyfriend, the best friends, and the overall
good life. What's missing.
Actually.. i have figured out what was missing..
gage.
GYM IS TORUROUS! although dodgeball with
Shannon is fucking hilarious.
"WHITNEY WE'RE MOVING IN.. DUCK!
OUCH SHIT! IS MY FACE RED?!"
Oh god no shannon, you're face is only
severely pink :D
Mr Gorham loves me.
"Whitney put yourself out there, you have potential!"
"... i have potential to excell at dodgeball? SWEEET!"
"NOT THE POINT! NOW GO HIT MALCOLM!"
hahahahahahahahahaha, i hate malcolm.
:D!
Katy Perry bugs me.
But her song "thinking of you" doesn't bug me.
It's weirdly acceptible.
& this whole holiday only dedicated to love
can suck my left tit, thanks.
why me?
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
How is it possible to
How is it possible to have just about everything you want, and still feel complete empty. i don't know, i think i just really need to see derek.
Monday, February 9, 2009
HORRRRAY!
with chelsea biotches!:D
GASP! MAC & CHEESE TIME YO!
kraft, not easy mac.,
easy mac is for squares.
anywho, PEACE!
"Here i am.. fifteen minutes later starving
with the chicken on the counter, i'm so dumb'
^^^ my boyfriend is a winnnnner! :D
GASP! MAC & CHEESE TIME YO!
kraft, not easy mac.,
easy mac is for squares.
anywho, PEACE!
"Here i am.. fifteen minutes later starving
with the chicken on the counter, i'm so dumb'
^^^ my boyfriend is a winnnnner! :D
Saturday, February 7, 2009
WOOOOOO! with abbey at 8
WOOOOOO! with abbey at 8 in the morning and i didn't sleepover! opahhh!
i <333333 this.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
This is Harvard, Not a stripper bar.
I have been doing a lot of 'what if' kinda thinking lately.
like what if i never started dating you, would we still be
bestfriends?
or what if i never got involved with you, would me and her
be as close as we used to?
i dunno. but i hate it. my mind just needs to rest for a while
i think and just kinda escape all this nonsense
i have this compulsion that i need to say i love you,
before i blurt it out at the worst time ever.
i'm nervous as too what you would say though.
oh! and i have a new obsession with legally blonde the
musicall. the music is so.. amazing? yes lets go with that :)
thanks mucho chelsea.
i love not being such a procratinator anymore,
like i don't wait til the last minute to do my homework
now. maybe cause i want to do good this semester?
yesssss that is the reason. my mum wasn't to thrilled
that i got almost straight c's. ehh whatevers! i'm going
for straight a's or b's. i won't settle for less.
Keep it positive
As you slap her to the floor
Keep it positive
As you pull her hair and call her whore
i heart this :D
like what if i never started dating you, would we still be
bestfriends?
or what if i never got involved with you, would me and her
be as close as we used to?
i dunno. but i hate it. my mind just needs to rest for a while
i think and just kinda escape all this nonsense
i have this compulsion that i need to say i love you,
before i blurt it out at the worst time ever.
i'm nervous as too what you would say though.
oh! and i have a new obsession with legally blonde the
musicall. the music is so.. amazing? yes lets go with that :)
thanks mucho chelsea.
i love not being such a procratinator anymore,
like i don't wait til the last minute to do my homework
now. maybe cause i want to do good this semester?
yesssss that is the reason. my mum wasn't to thrilled
that i got almost straight c's. ehh whatevers! i'm going
for straight a's or b's. i won't settle for less.
Keep it positive
As you slap her to the floor
Keep it positive
As you pull her hair and call her whore
i heart this :D
Saturday, January 31, 2009
HORRRRAY!
Time to meet the fam!
1st time. SUCCESS!
that takes so much pressure off
my chest it's unbelievable (:
And it helps major that his mum
is like super chillll.
can't wait for the next time..
:D
I'm just done with wanting me and your
friendship back, obviously you don't
care anymore, so i don't either.
i'm moving onn bud, and i won't look
back. this may hurt, but waiting around
for you hurts moreee.
Mercedes is over!
Horrrrrray :D
1st time. SUCCESS!
that takes so much pressure off
my chest it's unbelievable (:
And it helps major that his mum
is like super chillll.
can't wait for the next time..
:D
I'm just done with wanting me and your
friendship back, obviously you don't
care anymore, so i don't either.
i'm moving onn bud, and i won't look
back. this may hurt, but waiting around
for you hurts moreee.
Mercedes is over!
Horrrrrray :D
& i take it all back.
i don't miss you.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Hi Whitney, Time To Meet Your Fate.
goodness.
How often do you come across a certain human being
that impacts on numerous levels that you thought
no one else could reach but yourself?
Deffinately not daily, nor weekly. Not even monthly.
It's one of those "once in a lifetime" moments.
I like it. I like it a lot.
Happy day, i guess you could say.
I mean other than the fact that i
stilllll haven't talked to him.
i don't think that he understands how
horrible it makes me feel, and how much
i misss him. i neeed him more than
anything. and he doesn't even care.
"=D i love you too whitney! =D and i would die if i lost you"
How often do you come across a certain human being
that impacts on numerous levels that you thought
no one else could reach but yourself?
Deffinately not daily, nor weekly. Not even monthly.
It's one of those "once in a lifetime" moments.
I like it. I like it a lot.
Happy day, i guess you could say.
I mean other than the fact that i
stilllll haven't talked to him.
i don't think that he understands how
horrible it makes me feel, and how much
i misss him. i neeed him more than
anything. and he doesn't even care.
"=D i love you too whitney! =D and i would die if i lost you"
this is going to make me cry.
:(
I just don't know.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Joys of snowdays.
Get up,
Move to couch,
text boyfriend,
watch about 390847340 episodes of the bachelor,
watch random shows with my mum,
call abbey,
still text boyfriend,
go in my room,
BLOG!
eventful day?! i think so.
Gage is a dick.
end of story.
Move to couch,
text boyfriend,
watch about 390847340 episodes of the bachelor,
watch random shows with my mum,
call abbey,
still text boyfriend,
go in my room,
BLOG!
eventful day?! i think so.
Gage is a dick.
end of story.
:DDDDD
YIPPPPPY PEACE!
Monday, January 26, 2009
I hate being sick.
Seriously, like what the hell.
I don't have my phone for like
four more hours cause my mum
thinks i am lying about being sick.
I'm vomitting so i must be faking
right? That's what i thought tooo.
Blah. Facking Aye.
Why does he now insist on talking
to me?! Gosh, kill me now!
I don't have my phone for like
four more hours cause my mum
thinks i am lying about being sick.
I'm vomitting so i must be faking
right? That's what i thought tooo.
Blah. Facking Aye.
Why does he now insist on talking
to me?! Gosh, kill me now!
Blahblahblah,
I stilll miss you.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
YOUR LAST:
Last beverage - Waterrrr.
Last phone call - My aunt asking if i wanna babysit.
Last instant message - "I'm your boyfriend" - Derek (:
Last song you listened to -Summer 98?
Last time you cried - While ago, i'm pretty happy.
HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice - Yes.
Been cheated on - Probably.
Kissed someone & regretted it - No, never.
Lost someone special - Yes, they were very special.
IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love - In a way, i guess you could say that.
Laughed until you cried - Obviouslt,
Met someone who changed your life - Yes.
Found out someone was talking about you - Well of course.
RANDOM:
How many kids do you want to have - Two or three.
Do you have any pets - Two kitties.
Do you want to change your name - Kiersten please.
What time did you wake up today - Like 8:30 or so.
What were you doing at midnight last night - Laying in my bed, on the phone.
Name something you CANNOT wait for - To seee Derek.
What's one thing you wish you could change - Where i go to school
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - Oh god yes.
What's getting on your nerves right now Miiiiii madre.
What's your real name - Whitney Marie Moreau.
Relationship Status - Happily taken.
Zodiac sign - Capricorn.
Elementary/primary School - Highland Goffes Falls & Weston
Middle/secondary School - Hillllside Midddle.
High School - West High :(
Hair color - Natural : Blonde Current: Kinda brunette.
Long or short - Uhh boob length? Not sure.
Are you a health freak - Not even close.
Righty or lefty- I wish i was lefty, but sadly righty.
HAVE YOU EVER :
Kissed a stranger - No thank you.
Drank hard liquor - BAHAHAH! Yes.
Lost glasses/contacts - Nopeee.
Ran away from home - No thank you.
Broken someone's heart - Yes i have.
Been arrested - Ha no thank you again.
Turned someone down - Obviously.
Cried when someone died - Yesss, of course.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself - Not reallly.
Miracles - Yes i do.
Love at first sight - In ways, yes.
Heaven - Yes.
Santa Clause - BAHHA no.
Kiss on the first date - Yesss.
Angels - No.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? - Derek (:
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? - No, that's low.
Do you believe in God? - Yesss i do.
Buhhumbug?
What does that word mean?
Buhhumbug? Or however you spell it?
Oh it wonders me, wonders me deeply.
"You look like a fairy of the ice.
Oh wow gee thanks!"
Anytime boyfriend, anytime (:
I enjoy meeting new people, like for instance:
Kelsey Stergiou.
She is so freaking awesome, i'm very glad i started
talking to her. I have a feeling me and her could be
mighty good friends (:
"Prove it"
Prove it? I despise this little phrase.
"Boy, i love you"
Prove it.
What? How do i prove feelings towards
someone. No. i will not have sex with you
to prove my feelings, get that thought out
of your head now. Never will that happen.
I understand saying to be funny, which it
is, but when you say it meaningly, like fuck
you.
I don't like it.
Please just stop.
Oh, and i attempted to explain to him how i truly feel,
i hate expressing my feelings towards someone.
It bugs me. Oh how the world would be so
much easier if people could just read minds.
I would rather that than playing this game.
I really wish i could just say those three words
to him, so he would understand. I hate this.
Eww new semester, straight a's here we come!
Ready for no life? I SURE AM! :D
He hasn't come home in 2 days.
Usually that isn't a good sign.
I mean c'mon, usually people who
are "in love" want to be together
all the time. Well if that's the case
for my mum, she lost that intense
feeling a long time ago. Sad really.
Buhhumbug? Or however you spell it?
Oh it wonders me, wonders me deeply.
"You look like a fairy of the ice.
Oh wow gee thanks!"
Anytime boyfriend, anytime (:
I enjoy meeting new people, like for instance:
Kelsey Stergiou.
She is so freaking awesome, i'm very glad i started
talking to her. I have a feeling me and her could be
mighty good friends (:
"Prove it"
Prove it? I despise this little phrase.
"Boy, i love you"
Prove it.
What? How do i prove feelings towards
someone. No. i will not have sex with you
to prove my feelings, get that thought out
of your head now. Never will that happen.
I understand saying to be funny, which it
is, but when you say it meaningly, like fuck
you.
I don't like it.
Please just stop.
Oh, and i attempted to explain to him how i truly feel,
i hate expressing my feelings towards someone.
It bugs me. Oh how the world would be so
much easier if people could just read minds.
I would rather that than playing this game.
I really wish i could just say those three words
to him, so he would understand. I hate this.
Eww new semester, straight a's here we come!
Ready for no life? I SURE AM! :D
He hasn't come home in 2 days.
Usually that isn't a good sign.
I mean c'mon, usually people who
are "in love" want to be together
all the time. Well if that's the case
for my mum, she lost that intense
feeling a long time ago. Sad really.
I miss you.
I need you.
I love you.
Friday, January 23, 2009
...
Why do i miss detention!?
This is rediculous, i want it back.
How many teenagers do you know that actually
want detention just so they don't have to go home
and sit on their ass and watch CSI Miami, yes that's
whitney! horrrraaay.
I'm excitedexcitedexcited. I get to see the boyfriend
tonight! Yayayayay! It's amazing how much i care
for a boy. I thought i would not feel this way for a long
time, but it's happening again and i can't say i mind.
He is a good guy, a really good guy.
<3
I talked to Dylan again today.
It's his birthday, and i couldn't
not say happy birthday so bam!
I talked to him, and nothing is coming back.
Those feelings are gone, it's so great.
I couldn't be happier!
Day 2 of no fighting. It's a start.
Hopefully it will be the end, but
knowing my luck, it won't be.
I just need serenity, peace.
I hatehatehatehate chorus.
What i would do if i could
shove ms wilkes of a clifff.
YAY CLIFFS!
I'm a mean, horrible person.
Why do i have friends?!
OH! And i laaaaaaa my sistaaa <3
This is rediculous, i want it back.
How many teenagers do you know that actually
want detention just so they don't have to go home
and sit on their ass and watch CSI Miami, yes that's
whitney! horrrraaay.
I'm excitedexcitedexcited. I get to see the boyfriend
tonight! Yayayayay! It's amazing how much i care
for a boy. I thought i would not feel this way for a long
time, but it's happening again and i can't say i mind.
He is a good guy, a really good guy.
<3
I talked to Dylan again today.
It's his birthday, and i couldn't
not say happy birthday so bam!
I talked to him, and nothing is coming back.
Those feelings are gone, it's so great.
I couldn't be happier!
Day 2 of no fighting. It's a start.
Hopefully it will be the end, but
knowing my luck, it won't be.
I just need serenity, peace.
I hatehatehatehate chorus.
What i would do if i could
shove ms wilkes of a clifff.
YAY CLIFFS!
I'm a mean, horrible person.
Why do i have friends?!
OH! And i laaaaaaa my sistaaa <3
Peace yo!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Wow, i have officially hit rock bottom.
I have had soulja boy stuck in my head all fucking day!
goodness. it bugs me. but whateverssss. no biggy yo.
oh jeez, please someone hit me in the face.
My family is a bunch of wackos, i swear i'm not related
to them. actually that's a lie. i had to get my loserish
personality from somewhere, right? that's what i thought to!
So i have officially come to realize that i miss susan call me
olivia gunther more than any other human being in the whole
entire worlddd. i think she should come see me! but that's
just me and my lame ideas again!
:DDD
vous êtes boiteux (:
goodness. it bugs me. but whateverssss. no biggy yo.
oh jeez, please someone hit me in the face.
My family is a bunch of wackos, i swear i'm not related
to them. actually that's a lie. i had to get my loserish
personality from somewhere, right? that's what i thought to!
So i have officially come to realize that i miss susan call me
olivia gunther more than any other human being in the whole
entire worlddd. i think she should come see me! but that's
just me and my lame ideas again!
:DDD
vous êtes boiteux (:
Horray for Failing at life!
"Everyone who wants to hear your grades, raise your hands.
89, 85, 94, 77, .. Whitney you may want to come up here.."
Yes. That was what Mr Miller said. I could already imagine my grade.
Whitney... you have a 67. That's a D.
.....
..
YES FUCKYEAH! WHITNEY DIDN'T FAIL WHITNEY DIDN'T FAIL!
I nearly danced back to my seat. Ahhh thank goodness i don't have to return
to that class. Stupid civics. Who actually likes that class? Not Whitney that's
fersure. Woot! I wonder if my mum will be as happy as me?
French = HELLL!
That stupid class makes me want to rip hair our of my head.
And now brandon isn't there to make it all better.
"Whitney, do you want to see my drawing of a giraffe?"
Okay there brandon.
1, 2 button my shoe
3, 4 shut the door
5, 6 pick up sticks
7, 8 close the gate
9, 10 do it again!
Who ever had that much of a life to come up with such a pointless song?
I surely dunnno. But whoever they were should win a metal.
"WHY IS FIRECROTCH RUNNING?!"
Oh how i love my chelsea.
Stupid Gage needs a kick in the ass.
"I lost in court, i lost my license"
Good, now maybe you will learn your lesson.
OH OH OH! And i think MTV should fall off a cliff!
Yipppppy!
gosh, i need to just go play sudoku.
The only thing that calms me down when
i'm stressed (:
Why do all the ghetto guys like me?!
It's quite disturbing, and frankly i'm
not going to be interested in someone
with the name jose thank you very much.
"Whitney, you know what we are going to do?"
*I already have a feeling as to where this is going.*
Me, you. You're on yo knees.
*Yeah, i figured*
"Sorry Jose, but i have a boyfriend."
"WTF EVER!"
....
Okay.
89, 85, 94, 77, .. Whitney you may want to come up here.."
Yes. That was what Mr Miller said. I could already imagine my grade.
Whitney... you have a 67. That's a D.
.....
..
YES FUCKYEAH! WHITNEY DIDN'T FAIL WHITNEY DIDN'T FAIL!
I nearly danced back to my seat. Ahhh thank goodness i don't have to return
to that class. Stupid civics. Who actually likes that class? Not Whitney that's
fersure. Woot! I wonder if my mum will be as happy as me?
French = HELLL!
That stupid class makes me want to rip hair our of my head.
And now brandon isn't there to make it all better.
"Whitney, do you want to see my drawing of a giraffe?"
Okay there brandon.
1, 2 button my shoe
3, 4 shut the door
5, 6 pick up sticks
7, 8 close the gate
9, 10 do it again!
Who ever had that much of a life to come up with such a pointless song?
I surely dunnno. But whoever they were should win a metal.
"WHY IS FIRECROTCH RUNNING?!"
Oh how i love my chelsea.
Stupid Gage needs a kick in the ass.
"I lost in court, i lost my license"
Good, now maybe you will learn your lesson.
OH OH OH! And i think MTV should fall off a cliff!
Yipppppy!
gosh, i need to just go play sudoku.
The only thing that calms me down when
i'm stressed (:
Why do all the ghetto guys like me?!
It's quite disturbing, and frankly i'm
not going to be interested in someone
with the name jose thank you very much.
"Whitney, you know what we are going to do?"
*I already have a feeling as to where this is going.*
Me, you. You're on yo knees.
*Yeah, i figured*
"Sorry Jose, but i have a boyfriend."
"WTF EVER!"
....
Okay.
PEACE YO!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Hag.
Thank the LORD that science midterms
are over, i mean c'mon man seriously.
"This is short, sweet and to the point, good luck!"
He just wants to rub it in my face that i suck at life,
now doesn't he? Shush Mr. Reisman, your encouragement
makes me want to punch children with brass knunckles.
"Yeah Sarah, go practice your oral"
:)
Parents fighting = BAH!
"Why don't you try controlling
that 15 year old daughter of yours before
yuo start telling me what to do!"
Apparently i am way out of control, and i wasn't
aware of this, psssssh thanks family love you bunches!
I love my friends, i'm such a bitch to them, it's great.
Yeahhh and my life is uber boring other than these
little tidbits :D
are over, i mean c'mon man seriously.
"This is short, sweet and to the point, good luck!"
He just wants to rub it in my face that i suck at life,
now doesn't he? Shush Mr. Reisman, your encouragement
makes me want to punch children with brass knunckles.
"Yeah Sarah, go practice your oral"
:)
Parents fighting = BAH!
"Why don't you try controlling
that 15 year old daughter of yours before
yuo start telling me what to do!"
Apparently i am way out of control, and i wasn't
aware of this, psssssh thanks family love you bunches!
I love my friends, i'm such a bitch to them, it's great.
Yeahhh and my life is uber boring other than these
little tidbits :D
Peace out son!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Chew On My Titty Fat.
Yippppy!
I have a new found allergy to dust!
I just love finding out pointless things about myself :)
So Obama is presidente, couldn't be happier.
I think he's just about the best choice that us
Americans have made in a longggg time. Woot,
i love change oh so much :D
Now, could someone possibly explain to me why
i actually enjoyed detention today?
"Psssssst Chelsea! Psssst! PSSSST CHELSEA!"
"What do you want?!"
"Chelsea, Shut up!"
And the best part is, i can't wait to go back :P
I loveeee not having people on my back at all times,
it's a nice change to my daily life. And why can't i
stop sneezing, it's torturous!
AHHH! I have spongebob mac&cheese, my life is complete
(:
I have a new found allergy to dust!
I just love finding out pointless things about myself :)
So Obama is presidente, couldn't be happier.
I think he's just about the best choice that us
Americans have made in a longggg time. Woot,
i love change oh so much :D
Now, could someone possibly explain to me why
i actually enjoyed detention today?
"Psssssst Chelsea! Psssst! PSSSST CHELSEA!"
"What do you want?!"
"Chelsea, Shut up!"
And the best part is, i can't wait to go back :P
I loveeee not having people on my back at all times,
it's a nice change to my daily life. And why can't i
stop sneezing, it's torturous!
AHHH! I have spongebob mac&cheese, my life is complete
(:
Peace, around the world, for generations!
:D
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
So fucking blow those words out the back of your head.
Everything is getting better surprisingly.
I haven't had anything major happen that
like threw me way offf. Other than that
major fight with tommy and my mom. but
whatevs, and figuring this whole thing out
with cody. another whatevs. i don't realllly
care what happens as of now with him, i just
need it to be done, and get on with everything.
Midterms are really stressing me out, and are
making me really nervous about alll of it. I
am struggling with schoool, more than before
and i know it's not cause of alll the i am too
lazy shit. It's just everything. I wish i went to
a different school, not west. People are majorly
lame here, and when Gage leaves next year,
i'm alone basically. It's really sad, but true.
On a lighter note, i met Derek (:
And he's really chilll, and i love talking
to himmm. And he's wicked cute, which
is a big plus on everything :D It just
shows that i'm not hopeless on the making
new friends area of life. And i have officially
come to terms with the fact that my closest
friends will most likely always stay the same.
AHHHHH! I died my hair, and i hatehatehate it.
Time to get it changed yet again :DD
I think i'm extremely bipolar when it comes to my
hair, and change in general. I need change to live.
But at the same time, i hate it and never want
anything to become different.
I went to go see Word For Word with Aura and Abbey
On Saturday night. It was fucking intense! There was
moshing everywhere, and i love listening to music where
you can't understand what they are saying. It's fantastic.
I got a shirttt <3 Oh, and my shoulder is fucked for like
ever. HORRRRAYYY! I love these kinda of things.
All strange things that happen to me are always with
Aura and Abbey, like legit. Never with anyone else.
It's very amusing. HILLBILLY SUSHI MOSHING
YO SON! Gosh, those are the times you're going to
tell your grandchildren, and then explain to them it's
not a good idea to do about half the shitt i did. Joys :)
I want pizzzzza reallly fucking bad!
Abbey, Aura, Mercedes, Meg, & Gage(:
Forever&Always <3
I haven't had anything major happen that
like threw me way offf. Other than that
major fight with tommy and my mom. but
whatevs, and figuring this whole thing out
with cody. another whatevs. i don't realllly
care what happens as of now with him, i just
need it to be done, and get on with everything.
Midterms are really stressing me out, and are
making me really nervous about alll of it. I
am struggling with schoool, more than before
and i know it's not cause of alll the i am too
lazy shit. It's just everything. I wish i went to
a different school, not west. People are majorly
lame here, and when Gage leaves next year,
i'm alone basically. It's really sad, but true.
On a lighter note, i met Derek (:
And he's really chilll, and i love talking
to himmm. And he's wicked cute, which
is a big plus on everything :D It just
shows that i'm not hopeless on the making
new friends area of life. And i have officially
come to terms with the fact that my closest
friends will most likely always stay the same.
AHHHHH! I died my hair, and i hatehatehate it.
Time to get it changed yet again :DD
I think i'm extremely bipolar when it comes to my
hair, and change in general. I need change to live.
But at the same time, i hate it and never want
anything to become different.
I went to go see Word For Word with Aura and Abbey
On Saturday night. It was fucking intense! There was
moshing everywhere, and i love listening to music where
you can't understand what they are saying. It's fantastic.
I got a shirttt <3 Oh, and my shoulder is fucked for like
ever. HORRRRAYYY! I love these kinda of things.
All strange things that happen to me are always with
Aura and Abbey, like legit. Never with anyone else.
It's very amusing. HILLBILLY SUSHI MOSHING
YO SON! Gosh, those are the times you're going to
tell your grandchildren, and then explain to them it's
not a good idea to do about half the shitt i did. Joys :)
I want pizzzzza reallly fucking bad!
Abbey, Aura, Mercedes, Meg, & Gage(:
Forever&Always <3
End Yo!
Friday, January 9, 2009
Rather Content, I guess?
Well, to start off, it's so fucking awesome that he goes to West now.
I like when people from my past come back, it's quite nice i guess.
You know, so you can talk about all the stupid stuff no one else gets,
yes i enjoy it greatly.
I'm not really sure, but i feel like all of a sudden things are falling
together. I'm feeling reassured, and i love finding out who my real
friends are. It's quite fantastic.
My mom is making spaghetti! HORRAY!
:)
I like when people from my past come back, it's quite nice i guess.
You know, so you can talk about all the stupid stuff no one else gets,
yes i enjoy it greatly.
I'm not really sure, but i feel like all of a sudden things are falling
together. I'm feeling reassured, and i love finding out who my real
friends are. It's quite fantastic.
My mom is making spaghetti! HORRAY!
:)
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Life Sucks.
I don't know what i am going to do anymore.
People need to seriously leave me the fuck alone.
No one can let me be happy, and for the first time
in a long time that i am, people crush it right before
my eyes. I'm so done with everything. I now know
who my true friends are, and those are the only ones
i care about, fuck the rest. They aren't worth anything
anymore. I'm just done.
Abbey, Aura, Mercedes, Meg & Gage.
The only ones i need in life <3
People need to seriously leave me the fuck alone.
No one can let me be happy, and for the first time
in a long time that i am, people crush it right before
my eyes. I'm so done with everything. I now know
who my true friends are, and those are the only ones
i care about, fuck the rest. They aren't worth anything
anymore. I'm just done.
Abbey, Aura, Mercedes, Meg & Gage.
The only ones i need in life <3
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Joyness.
Wow, vacation's over.
Somewhat depressing i guess.
School is back, YAY! not.
Vacation was nice, i didn't do anything.
It was great. Eat, sleep, talk on the phone,
and hangout with Abbey and Aura about
376524073 times. Now that is what i call
a 'good time'. And it's done. Joy.
It really bugs me when all people have no
positivity in them, especially when they
say the most negative things. This year,
I'm eliminating those kind of people from
my life. Time to ensure my happiness,
Horray for happiness!
Oh, and i lovelovelove Mulan with a passion!
Along with just about every other disney
movie out there. They are so amazinggg.
<3
Somewhat depressing i guess.
School is back, YAY! not.
Vacation was nice, i didn't do anything.
It was great. Eat, sleep, talk on the phone,
and hangout with Abbey and Aura about
376524073 times. Now that is what i call
a 'good time'. And it's done. Joy.
It really bugs me when all people have no
positivity in them, especially when they
say the most negative things. This year,
I'm eliminating those kind of people from
my life. Time to ensure my happiness,
Horray for happiness!
Oh, and i lovelovelove Mulan with a passion!
Along with just about every other disney
movie out there. They are so amazinggg.
<3
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